Is this a dream, am I here, where are you
What’s in back of the sky, why do we cry
– D. Previn/A. Previn, Valley of the Dolls
I remember years ago seeing Valley of the Dolls in the theatre. I don’t actually remember much of the movie itself . . . I was just a kid, and it was the hazy ’60s; I was probably pretty buzzed. But I do remember a couple of things: I felt so much empathy for the female characters, and the title song sung by Dionne Warwicke has stuck in my memory all these years, even though I don’t think I’ve heard it since that era. But it became part of my fabric. I can’t explain that . . . connections and sympatico are words that comes to mind.
I was reminded of this all tonight while watching more episodes of the first season of The L Word on DVD. I’ve seen eight episodes so far, and I am sooo hooked. I feel the same way I did when I saw Valley of the Dolls all those years ago. Connections . . . sympatico . . .
I’m not a big TV watcher. The last series that really moved me was Kung Fu, starring David Carradine as Kwai Chang Caine, the Shaolin priest. I identified with the spirit inside that character. It wasn’t about gender. It was about truth, and being true to oneself, and the journey we are all on. Kung Fu changed my life. It contributed to the metaphysical soul I am today. Yes, sometimes I see myself as a Shaolin priestess, but without the ballet kung fu moves . . . Smiles . . .
Tonight, I have similar feelings. Connections . . . connections . . . connections. The L Word has struck a chord in me, though it’s not about spiritual journeys this time. It’s about glamour and love . . . and sexual orientation and identity . . . and about being here now and, yes, being true to oneself right here in the material world . . . . It’s about the love I feel for my g/f, unlike anything I’ve known before . . . I’m not feeling bi anymore . . . wow . . . Sorry, guys . . .
The series is so well written, so well acted (kudos to all involved in the series). No wonder so many people are still talking about it on the Internet. I feel a little like I did as I started reading Lord of the Rings so many years ago. I know I have a long story ahead of me . . . and that I am going to enjoy every moment of it.
You know I’ll be sharing more thoughts on it all.
Smiles . . . .
Jillian
